So Tough

Can't wait to be this lady tomorrow at George's! 

It looks to me like it will be pretty easy.

Rosie the Riveter

Behind the Scenes

My Boyfriend tagged along for my Barbie shoot (he was in it as Ken, ofcourse!) and he got a few good shots of what it looks like behind the scenes at a shoot. 

It's really easy to forget sometimes how much work people put in to what seems like an effortless outcome. Fortunately for me, the Barbie shoot took no more than half an hour!

Holding on to comfort

This post is identifying a place and time where I've held on to my comfort zone, which prevents me from learning and has and will hold me back.


-I am really close and comfortable with my photographer. I don't feel like I am under any pressure when I am shooting with him.

-I also am extremely comfortable in front of a camera. I'm not sure how I could change that--perhaps a different photographer (not that I would even want to!) or a different setting

-modeling in itself makes me really comfortable. It is really soothing for me.

In response to a response...

I will be responding to the response a woman wrote about my blog.

Her name is Meggie. I have no idea who she is. 

She suggested I take more pictures (and post them) of the random bits in my project; however, I have a really difficult time posting random unnecessary things to my blog. I believe every post should have meaning behind it.

She mentioned that she believes I am doing a lot of the work and I am just not showing it. The only idea I could derive from that is posting the final images I create from the shoots. I don't want to reveal them to a lot of people until my gallery in June. I want it to be a surprise to everyone. 

Meggie mentioned she believe's I am aware of what my blog is missing....

I don't think anything is missing. It is my blog behind my character. I am creating it completely out of my own mind, using my ideas and thoughts in all of my posts. How can anyone judge or tell me that my thoughts and ideas are right or wrong?

I do like the idea of having someone video tape a shoot. I might do that this wednesday!

I do admit that I occasionally am struck with a bought of procrastination; however, I always do twice the work in the next shoot or the next week to compensate. I am accomplishing a lot, and perhaps it is not easy to see or tell, and maybe that is something I have to be a little bit more clear on. I definitely do not want to put the photos up though. 

I'm not going to sugar coat it

I don't really like blogging for WISE.

I'm not sure if it's because I have to go out of my way to blog, 

or that we're supposed to meet some fancy blog post quota every week, 

or the mere fact that I don't really like being on the computer.

To me, it's not enjoyable to blog about random crap that I KNOW people don't really care about--

Like the fact that I found the chair I am going to use for my Marilyn Monroe shoot this wednesday, or even that I am doing that shoot wednesday at all.

Perhaps it's an insecurity I possess-- I don't want to post anything I know wont interest people. Anything I know people will not comment on and smile when they read. 

Perhaps I'm just lazy. 

Partner read (pt. 2)

I read through the beautiful Julia John's blog tonight and I am blown away and a tad jealous....her blog is really really good. I know this post is supposed to be full of constructive criticism, but man.... I can't find one thing wrong with her blog. She is so descriptive, and all of her posts are really long and full of pictures with full detailed descriptions. It is very easy to read, as well as extremely interesting!

Partner Read

On the back of the "out of the rut" page, Mrs. Lord (or whoever typed this paper up) wrote "If you find yourself focusing on your project on an intimate level--very detailed, make sure to occasionally take a step back and address the macro or 'big picture' side of things."

What are the implications for your project on a career scale? 
Realistically: the chances of me following my project (on a broader spectrum) into a career, are slim to none. I am a mere 5'1 when PETITE models are at least 5'5-5'6
However, my project WILL provide me with insight of what craziness model's go through, and, going into the fashion industry, this information could be very valuable down the road--or it could simply just be something awesome to put on my resume and my college applications.

In what way does your project matter (or not!) in the larger scheme of things?
I can give two answers to this, one being very biased, and one being very general.
Biased: To me, pop culture has SO much influence on our world, on our government, our economy, our society, community, the way we treat people, EVERYTHING. In the larger scheme of things, this is another piece of art being put out into the world that can change someone, can affect someone, influence someone, my art could be someone's inspiration. My art could make people happy and feel...things.
General: This project, to an every day person who lives day to day that doesn't really have a negative feeling towards pop culture and art but doesn't hype about it like I do, might not really care. Some people could look at my art and simply just wonder what the hell they are looking at and why.

The gift of individual interpretation is pretty damn amazing.

What's a broader view or perspective on what you find yourself doing frequently?

I am always singing, or stepping waltz's and tap moves in the lunch line. I love putting on clothes and taking them off every night before I go to sleep, I love self improvement--be it mentally, physically, emotionally. I love bettering myself and thinking; I, every second of every single day, have a very detailed, very curious and in depth monologue that rolls through my head at all times. These all can tie in to perfecting my project.